Thursday, 30 April 2009
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Domino effect.
I'm realizing the weight of my sin now. Because I didn't cut off a certain friendship when I should have I am suffering the repercussions. These are somethings that I truly believe are the result of delayed (or dis)obedience:
-not really belonging anywhere. I hung around this person all the time, where I was, that person was and vice versa. Now when I want to eat on campus, like today, because I'm not really tight with anyone else it would be like using someone to ask to eat with them at this point. (I asked one of my friends who is also an RA and she was my mentor when they were eating and they aren't until late which conflicts with my schedule.)
-I feel insecure and I feel like I display a lot of the emotions and personality that this one particular person had. I often have pity parties and just feel alone
-the shame of sin
-lack of focus/bad grades
It's amazing how we one thing can have an effect on so many other things. Because of my sin and disobedience I'm having to suffer. I would advise anyone, if you are doing what you know you aren't doing or vise versa, you better fix it. If not, you will be suffering the consequences like I did. You don't want to be in the position I am. Sometimes I can't believe I am the one saying this; I am the one going through this and giving this advice, rather than being on the receiving end. Sin is so not worth it. It has a catostrophic effect on everything. Don't wait until you don't want to do it anymore; just stop now. Ask the Lord to help you, HE will. Deny yourself. It's hard but it will be worth it. Seek the Lord's wisdom and will in all things. It's the best plan for your life.
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Comments (2)
Hmm...I know exactly what you mean. I was going through this a while ago and now people ask me WHY I cut my ex out of my life completely, He was just not the type of friend I needed to have in my life and I kind of realized that late because we remained "friends" for almost 2 years after we broke up but I finally just stopped speaking to him like I KNEW I should because I read somewhere that we should evaluate the worth and the meaning of each of our friendships, that friendship was basically worthless, I didn't particularlly like him anymore and I think the only reason we kept talking was to find out what the other one was up to every now and then. It was definitely unhealthy so I had to cut him out as hard as it was I believe that's what God had wanted me to do from the beginning.
@BeautifulB_227 - yeah. It is really rough. Believe me, I tried a handful of times to cut the friendship off but we kept going back to being friends time and time again. But this time it is for real. It's really hard but sometimes the hardest decisions to make are probably the best ones.