I'm almost ready to just give up. My faith is decreasing unbelief and doubt is running rampant. Everything seems to be going wrong. What am I doing wrong? I'm on a fast trying to honor God and nothing seems to be happening. Before, when I was on a fast I always experienced God in a new way, I knew that God was speaking to me through different things. Now I just struggle. I just want to know and to experience God in a new way. The way things are going right now are just not working out for me. And school is just a whole other story. I feel like I'm doing horribly in half my classes. I don't want to fail but part of me doesn't care if I just barely pass. I feel like I'm doing a horrible job at being an RA because my residents aren't even writing on my dry-erase board anymore and no one has signed their name on the "let's do dinner" paper. Not one. And I have a bulletin board up that basically gives everyone a chance to write what they are thankful for and only one has written on there. It's just a mess. Where am I going wrong?! Maybe I need to heed to the advice in Isaiah 58 that talks about the right type of fasting. It says we should be clothing the naked, feeding the hungry, etc. I have begun a folded pile of clothes in my room waiting to go to the Joseph house or wherever they need it. Life kinda sucks now but I can't completely complain. God has maintained my health in spite of sickness all around me thank God. I can continue to expect because it's not over yet. I don't know where this hope is coming from because I feel hopeless right now... but as I was told i need to continue to expect!!! God is not through with me yet. Thank You Lord for this sudden wind of hope. God is going to work things out for my good and His glory!!!! I must keep pressing and continue to be expectant.
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God didn't bring you this far to drop you now!
Don't let any negative thoughts cloud your faith. Sometimes the victory is actually in The fight, we might look for it as an end result, progress and faith can both increase during the fight. Hold fast to what you know, everything else can fade away. Keep seeking guidance from God. He will strengthen you on every side. God bless and keep your chin up!
@WLCALUM - thanks so much for the encouragement! I appreciate it alot!
@izakura - thanks a lot!